Hell, I've always been old. You know what, though? I don't mind. if my muscles ache, it's 'cause I've used them. If it's hard for me to walk up them steps now, it's 'causeI walked up them every night to lay next to a man who loved me. I got a few wrinkles here and there, but I've laid under thousands of skies on sunny days..I look and feel this way, 'cause I drank and I smoked,I lived and I love..